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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
9:43 AM

Know that I've been loving you for so long....
Back again..
Work has been a pile of shit
But thank god,
I seriously had people supporting me
My life seems to be crashing down
And my mood is worse
Could it be hormones imbalance?
Recently,
I feel like crying
I dont know
I dont know how much longer i can hold on
I need someone
I need baby
I feel like shit without him
I feel a sense of emptiness and loneliness
But no one will ever understand
Cause either they have someone by their side
Or either they think they dont need anyone
I have been thinking a lot once again
Thinking of things that i shouldnt be thinking,
Thinking about things that has already happened
And yesterday,
I saw daddy's girlfriend,
I dont feel angry,
I just felt in my heart.
Is this woman better than mummy?
Mummy done so much for this family
What has she done?
but maybe i feel,
Everyone needs someone
Just like we need a companion
And the same gones for me as well
The only difference are the purposes,
I feel like running away again
I'm not upset by that
I just feel i need something to help get me by
I'm beginning to hate my job,
Hate my life..
I dont have any really true friends like my classmates before
Everyone is putting on a mask
And sometimes,
I begin to wonder.
The person i trust the most,
Are they really concerned about me?
Or are they concerned about me because they have no choice
Or they have hidden motives?
I feel everything is no meaning
Can someone tell me why?
I realise this is all of God's plan
I have been returning to church
But i know God wants me totally back to his side
So in times like these,
I can pray to him
And i will be closer to him
In everything, i pray to God
Amen.
Its not about knowing how to live with the one you love,
Its about knowing how to live without them.