And somethings telling me it might be you all of my life..

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[#o1] Welcome to my blog
[#o2] Do not rip anything off
[#o3] Live like you will die tomorrow
[#o4] Love like you have never been hurt before
[#o5] Follow your heart
[#o6] And remember to live life to the fullest
[#o7] Always be happy
[#o8] Follow all of the above cause Sandra says so

It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop

I am Cassandra Teresa Dias,

Another turning point - a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist - directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
When our time is up,
when our lives are done,
will we say we've had our fun?
will we make a mark this time?
will we always say we tried?
all the love i have made,
i have no regrets,
it it all ends now,
i'm set...

I have no regrets

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Saturday, March 17, 2007

11:15 PM

Can't break free until i let it go....

Wow..its been like 3 months since i last blogged...thought it was a waste of time but somehow just needed to express my "wonderful" thoughts...time pass so fast...hais...its been more than 3months for my job in giordano..but i still love it especially the people..i miss nana,jason,colin,yin wen and zheng rong,soon it will be pei shan...they are all quitting,sad...should i do the same? Somehow quit also wrong,don't quit also wrong..why does everything feel all wrong? tell me what should i do manz??

Another question is should i quit my tuition? i don't have the fucking money to pay but at the same time o's is coming,i can't afford to fail and Trish has high hopes on me and Hill...i'm so gonna die la...quit also wrong,don't quit also wrong,everything all wrong...

Ok,so let me tell you how has this year been like? It's horrible...the school has adapted a different system,its the homeroom system where we go to classes..its good but we end school so late almost everyday,wheregot time to even go tuition,what more study sia? The only good thing is that our form teacher is mrs nair,my favourite teacher..oh well.that is good enough..Btw,so much things have changed..my clique is offically disbanded..sadly,i'm the cause of it...but they didnt blame me for it,somehow i was guilty in the beginning but later they told me they don't even miss the clique..i was thinking in my heart"what the fuck?" don't you have feelings..what about our previous memories,have they all faded over time? And so i guess it should have ended at the beginning..i'm so disappointed but oh well..."they" don't have much worries over that..I have been having terrible trouble controlling my emotions this year..it feels so fucked up and screwed..I have been pmsing like almost everyday...what's worse is i have been having headaches too...Cause i can't freaking sleep everynight and even if i do,i suffer from nightmares...

Let me think,what else is missing..oh ya..so this year i join beth's clique...they are wonderful people but i realise i can't be in a clique cause i'm an individualistic...oh, and then i realise or should i say all along our class has a few hypocrites. I don't know how to pretend to mix with them..i cannot imagine myself talking to them cause i don't wanna be like them,but well..i'm not perfect either..so i have no right to say that of them.Contradict leh!!

This year is really horrible,1stly..my b'dae party was like crap,everyone came late and i had to buy and pay for my own cake..poor me right? oh well..next year is gonna be better...Secondly..i have been very blur as usual and thirdly, i dropped my phone into a pail of water..so careless right? oh well...you know sandra...nothing new!!Guess what..Huiling got into the audition for campus superstar..i'm so proud of her!! yeah,baby,you sure didnt let me down=) Jia you k? Seeing her the way she's leading her life now make me so proud of myself...she's the only person who give me a sense of achievement,haha..lame right? well you won't understand..still remember she last time so anti-social...now someone so noisy leh..keep it up man!!

I'm not trying to be sarcastic here but somehow i have learn the art of it..shit la...school is opening and i have not touched my homework..sandra,wake up!!! Yeah baby..i'm so happy..lord
i know i am a sinner cause i felt like one..but now i will do what you always wanted me to..Please give me the strength and faith to make this worthwhile...Please forgive me for not attending church these few months=)