And somethings telling me it might be you all of my life..

PLEASE READ THESE TERMS:

[#o1] Welcome to my blog
[#o2] Do not rip anything off
[#o3] Live like you will die tomorrow
[#o4] Love like you have never been hurt before
[#o5] Follow your heart
[#o6] And remember to live life to the fullest
[#o7] Always be happy
[#o8] Follow all of the above cause Sandra says so

It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop

I am Cassandra Teresa Dias,

Another turning point - a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist - directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
When our time is up,
when our lives are done,
will we say we've had our fun?
will we make a mark this time?
will we always say we tried?
all the love i have made,
i have no regrets,
it it all ends now,
i'm set...

I have no regrets

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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

8:07 PM

Meeting And Parting Are All Part Of Life,Part Of God's Plan...

And so the tenants has moved out..a sudden surge of sadness filled my heart..how i hate scenes like that,like you are so used to certain people and they had to leave you..I remember the first time when they moved in,i was like thinking..isn't it weird to have strangers living with you..but mum told me"darling,don't worry,they will be leaving in a months time" and then i was like..1 month? you guys wanna cramp with me in my room? How am i going to tahan for one month especially with dad's snore and having to talk to baby on the fone infront of them" i remember one month was like so long and draggy but i took time to get used to them..i remember them cooking delicious food all the time and whenever they cook,they will be like"sandra,come,eat with us" what generous people they are!! I feel sad that they left us,afterall,they were nice to talk to..I remember Teddy always making garlic bread for me, I remember asking Wea on her opinion on my clothes,and Monna and Rose,how i felt what noble mothers they were..I have learnt many things from them, they were such contented people,always with a smile..Well well well...but,never did i expect that the 1 month flew..so sad!! However,I believe God has this purpose for me to meet them, i believe god has a purpose for everything.Well,but i gotta understand that meeting and parting are part and parcel of life!!! They were such nice people.Thank you lord for letting me meet them,letting me learn so much from them and i pray lord that you will bless them with your grace=)

Now i know why life is called life...yes, life isn't a bed of roses but neither that bad..I feel a new chapter in my book, i am learning so much everyday in my life..Its like I have changed so much,i can feelmyself changing,changing to be a better person,lastly,a child of god. I believe Vincent was the reason but most importantly, i believe this was part of god's plan for me=) Lord,you have surely showed me your way..I thank you lord for all these=)

And so i've caught the flu bug like what everyone has been catching plus rashes where i feel like my whole body is infested with bugs,making me scratch everywhere..And i decided to see the doctor plus a throat that was killing me..I waited like 2hours in the clinic just for my turn but ya.. And so i didnt had the mood to do anything plus i was feeling very very lethargic,lack of energy..I promised that i felt so bad that i didnt smile the whole time in the morning..But later after coming back from the clinic,i cooked spaghetti as Rachel,Rozand,Hilda,Michy,Diane,Mojo made a promise last week with me to have potluck and i was suppose to coom spaghetti.. The best part was i only cooked enough for 2 person. They started cursing and swearing at me when they saw how small the portion but luckily with the rest of the contributions like the potato salad,jelly and not forgetting the mushroom soup and drinks, we had our full and enjoyed. Sorry guys for not talking and participating much cause i really felt unwell.. I wanted to cancel it but i know you guys are looking forward to it,can't bear to see the disappointment on your faces..haha..Thank you guys for today,hope you guys enjoyed it,i certainly did..i really miss my baby..there's another like 3 more days to go before i can finally see him,well but before that,i shall live the 3 days with enthusisam and keeness to live it to the fullest..Darling, i miss you=)
Oh no,i feel so sick,maybe i won't be going school tomorrow but baby say cannot anyhow pon school..how?haha...no la..i miss my lovely classmates too...Thank you lord,thank you for everything. You have certainly proved me that you have never forsaken me=)

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Sunday, July 29, 2007

11:30 PM

Thank You For Loving Me

Long lost gathering...

I Love Him=)

At Xiu Wen's Church

Yeah yeah, lots of money..

Superwoman!!

Radio Yun Ting

Yeah Monopoly Time!!

Violent Jessie..

Look At Beth

Haha..

Floorball Time!!

We are the man!!

Thank you for loving me.Most importantly, i would like to thank you lord,thanks for being my best friend, giving me the best you can,giving me good friends,wonderful family and a doting boyfriend..I realise having that something is one thing but knowing how to treasure it is another thing..Lord,thank you once again=) I'm feeling holy right now..spiritually filled..So you ask me what have i been up to? yes, i know i have not been updating but if you have been reading my blog constantly,i thank you.Thank you=) School has been fun these few days especially PE where we play floorball..and when we play monopoly during free time..despite how much i hate going school,despite how i hate lessons or how stressful it is but i realise time is ticking away,i'm so scared to grow up and be separated from my class..haha,its funny how i wished things were different in the past but i realise time is scary..Thanks people,thank you for all the memories...i'm not emo ok? i'm just sincerely grateful for everything..and so on Saturday,went to Xiu Wen's church in the morning..i love their worship,the topic was on best friend. Truely, god is my best friend.. he has always been there,loving me unconditionallyI love their worshipping but oh well..i don't know..and after church, i went home to meet baby,i wore a tube and he kept making me pull up my jacket,haha..he ah..then we left for ikea,shopped there for a while then took a bus to pasir ris,and from there took a train to kallang..and for there,we just followed people wearing wwe shirt to the indoor stadium..he was like"eh, we lost track of them already,how? just follow" so funny la he..and after the long walk..we finally reached the stadium,packed with people..met up with karl.And soon time was drawing near..they checked our bags and the funniest part is that they confiscate our drink,not our camera..haha..oh well,so he bought hotdog bun for me and guess what? it was 6 bucks..so expensive,thank you darling!! the show was fake,but it was good cheering them on and booing them..most important part was that we enjoyed it..Beside me,was a family of 4 watching together,so sweet!! after the show,we met up with Tasha and karl,took some pictures,wanted to have supper together but never la..So baby and me took a bus to marina square and ate mac instead..so funny..then we took a cab home..and he made me put on safety belt..what a rare speci,he is..isn't he? love him to the core..thank you darling,i had so much fun with you,i promise next time,if they come again,i will go with you ok? love you=)So what can i say?? my life's great!!! I'm down with flu and my house had a power failure just now..so scary..I love you lord and thanks for loving me=) Goodnight people!!

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Monday, July 23, 2007

10:44 PM

Thank God I Found You=)

Sandra's on a diet,she's gained 4kg and everyone's been saying i have put on weight...so i'm on a diet..i'm cutting on carbo so i did not touch any rice and noodles for today..Well,there's biology mock test tomorrow and i have not studied..Jia you people!! PE today was fun again..really enjoyed..well well well..I'm happy again.The switch ending was good,really glad to see everyone ended up with the one they love..I feel being with the one you really love is the most fortunate and happiest thing..So to all the singles out there, I believe there will be your half waiting for you at the other end=)

I would give up everything
Before I'd separateMyself from you,
After so much suffering
To finally find unvarnished truth
I was all by myself
For the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life
CHORUS
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankfulI found you
I will give you everything
There's nothing in this worldI wouldn't do
To insure your happiness
I cherish every part of you'
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
Don't want to tryIf you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Because I need you in my life
REPEAT CHORUS
See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back
I guessIt shows that we were
Destined to shineAfter the rain,
to appreciateThe gift of what we have
And i'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Baby, i'm so thankful i found you=)

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

2:18 PM

Sometimes,the one thing you are looking for is the one thing you can't see...

I see a change in my life..A brand new change in me..I always hated changes, thought they were stupid..I remember Huiling telling me time after time that some changes are good and now,friend,i finally understand what you mean. I feel happy..yes,probably Vincent is the reason,he's the reason why my life has changed..Like what Miss Candice said,it only takes one person to say something to you and then you will realise you have been living life the way you should not.Now,i can see the wonders and magic of love.Love not only in terms of relationship,but kinship and friendship.I'm not bragging or boasting here.. but i have finally understand how love can do wonders..One good example is Christ dying for us on the cross..prior to that, I believe Vincent has changed me alot..though both of us think differently but i realised i have changed alot..Not only being much happier but a better person..I remember on the night that we first fought..I hated the fact that he always wanted me to change..but he told me something..I told him that if you were to change me one more bit,i would not be the same Cassandra Dias you first knew and then he said,yes you can,you can still be Cassandra Dias but a better and more improved Cassandra Dias...thinking about it now,i think he has a point..Now,i see what he mean..I feel that he has brought me closer to many things in life..like many things i have missed out,many people and things that i have been taking for granted...And lastly,though he's not a christian but i feel he has brought me closer to God..I have realise all this while..God has been there for me, i know it did especially when i was in depression mode and started hating the whole world..he brought wonderful people into my life and now i can see how much they love me...Please don't think i'm sounding emo here,i'm just saying what my heart has been hiding all these while...Well well well, in the past i was too blind to see what i had but now i can finally see and i thank everyone for it=)

Ok..back to life...i just realise school is getting much more fun than i expected it to be,i don't mean the lessons but its the people...perhaps,its the last year and we all treasure...i cannot believe 5 weeks has pass me..and i can't believe i survived thru it with such enthusiam and fun..So PE was fun especially floorball...and i still remember sam's clique having a mini concert at the hall..its small things like that,that make me realise how fun school can be..This entry is gonna be long cause if i'm not wrong,i missed out three days...Oh ya,so Candice's lesson was good,she thought us the formula of success..i believe there's no such thing as formula...its all in our hands...like what she says..CHOICES.Yes..life is full of choice..ok enough of that..so that day,went to Thai Express with Diane,Michelle and Pei Qing..it was absolute fun...love their company..then on friday,went out with baby,we met up in amk hub and we watched transformers..the effects were good but i didnt understand the story,not only I but we both didnt understand,and after which he brought me to eat stingray..it was good..and then he send me home..and we sat under my house's void deck..start taking photos and there was a bird there..it can't fly and it was so cute...i was like"eh,carry the bird here leh..then he was like people sleeping,don't disturb la...then i said,its a bird not a person" then we laugh together,haha...really love his company..he's just so nice..Yay!! there's gathering tomorrow,so excited,cannot wait..i cannot believe time really pass so fast..i know i said it alot alot of times..oh well..you know Sandra,she just love repeating herself..so, Goodnight world,hello bed=)

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

10:40 PM

A Letter To God

Dear God:
Just wanna say i miss you...i know i have been missing mass for quite awhile due to my job...but now that i have quit..i will faithfully go to church...You not only forgave me for this and for that,for every sin i made,for everything i should not have said or done..instead,you even blessed me with so many wonderful things..lord, now, the joy and the pain,i'm making them yours...thanks you lord, no words can express how grateful i am to you..Lord..i promise,i will be a good girl from now on..i have learn my mistakes..i kinda miss going catchism, youth mass..i really miss them all...i miss saying prayers at night cause i don't even bother to pray now..i also miss reading bibles..lord, you were there for me at my worst..you saw how horrible i was,how confused,how sinful i was...thank you lord for being there for me..I miss church camps,lord..i need you back into my life again...I know i might sound crazy but i don't care anymore...thanks for giving me a wonderful family..though there are some problems but i believe you will make a way..thanks for giving me such an interesting class..with different characters,you have taught me how to love and accept them..though sometimes, it is not easy getting along with people especially people that we don't like,but it was you god who taught me how to love...lastly,for giving me Vincent..i was afraid to love,but i believe you gave him to me for a purpose..Lord,i pray that you will help me overcome all the doubts that i'm having right now...I know everything i own now is from you...lord,i'm really thankful for everything..I may not be someone great,may not be a smart student in school..i may be hot-tempered or maybe self-centred...but lord,thanks for making me Cassandra Dias..but lord,i also pray that you will take all my fear away..Last but not least,i pray that you will bless my family,friends and everyone whom i know,that they will be happy...take away whatever problems they are going thru now..Lastly, you are a wonderful god...I love you jesus!!

Jesus,lover of my soul,
jesus,i would never let you go
I love you,
i need you,
though my world may fall,
i will never let you go
my saviour
my closest friend
i will worship you until the very end

Yes, yes...i'm getting emo, i know=)

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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

10:13 PM

Twist Of Fate

I just realise i can't be a housewife next time...cause i cannot even properly fry a chicken...i fried it at 300 degrees during fnn,do you believe it? everyone was laughing at me and i laughed even harder,haha...heven been having tuition lately...hais...i cannot fail,i really cannot...well well well...school was fine today,found myself in a serious mood these past few days,is that a sign that my best friend is coming??haha..i hate my best friend la...and so today 9pm show was good..it really made me ponder about alot of stuff..so now,you know why i love chinese series..they are related to life and really...especially the part when xinyu was crying like mad and talking to herself in the toilet...it was so sad la..almost cry already..its like,sometimes,we take things for granted..thinking things will always be the same..maybe we shouldnt expect too much from life..don't you think so?? the more we cling on to certain things,the more we lose it...thats what i have learn perhaps...hais...o levels are like coming la...and i'm still slacking...useless sia...i know they are all excuses but ya....oh well...I feel life is very short...so we should live it to the fullest..oh no..i'm getting emo again..perhaps its because i'm missing him...haha..thanks Jessie,steff,michx and especially mojo for today's lunch..missed this kind of things for a long time..I thank God for everything=)

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

10:28 PM

She's going crazy....

She should be studying now but she isn't

She misses her baby alot...

She loves doing grafitti for everyone

She loves the new western food stall

She's glad chinese o level is over!!

She's worried for tomorrow's fnn Practical!!

But...

She aint got any REGRETS!!!

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Monday, July 16, 2007

10:55 PM

Grafitti Rawks!!

I feel Grafitti is cool..

Boring,

didnt go to school today,

missed out all the fun...

was having rashes la...

but came back from listening compre,

it was good...

I don't like the bubble tea shop aunty

well well well...

i'm sleepy..

so good night world!!

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Sunday, July 15, 2007

8:22 PM

Breathing In Every Moment Of My Life

I love him..

Fair and Me

East Coast Trip

Well well well...hahaha..i'm so happy..i bet nobody is as happy as i am...breathing in every moment of my life..thinking how time has flew,how many things in my life has changed..However,i'm not regretting any of it yet..i'm admiring it,but not forgetting the fact that all good things will come to an end one day..I'm not getting emo here,but darling..you might think i am..haha,maybe my best friend really is coming..i'm just happy..happy that everyone loves me..think of me before doing anything..having so much love is the best present God have given me..Ok..let's get down to business..So what have i been up to?? School have been good,guess what,i don't need to stay back already..we were so so so happy,haha...but actually,it was also fun staying back,chatting,telling stories..so last friday,after school,hanged out with Jessie and Stephanie,my good old buddies,oh how i miss them so much..went to the new bubble tea shop and then headed back to my house..though we didnt do much but i love their company...its good hanging out once in a while..then after that went out with Fairli,went to J8 for dinner..did lots of catching up,missed her company too...catching up once in a while is also good...see people,having a boyfriend does not mean i don't spend time with you guys ok?? hahaha...went for dinner at thai express,then almost wanted to head to Bugis to shop but later decided not to...but we kept a promise to ourself,we shall go the next time round..haha..then shop eat shop eat..fair,thanks for the treat especially the yummy mudpie..really enjoyed myself...being with you made me realise how time has flew,haha...its so so funny...life is funny!!! And so,i had a good night sleep that day cause the next day was beach day...So woke up with excitement cause i was also meeting baby on Saturday...bathe,changed and got ready to meet Beth and Mojo at the cherry Hill bus stop..got there,met Hilda n Huimin..and then we headed to East Coast..met up with the rest..weather was good...had lots of food,haha..and of cause,we took lots and lots of wonderful picutres...after that,they went to rent bicycles and roller blades..and then i was prepared to leave to meet baby..the sweetest part was Beth rode me back to the tunnel and with her and Diane's company,they made my day..Love you guys,thanks for understanding me as i had to meet him..dun angry hor!! haha...know you all not so petty la...and they were so sweet to carve my name on the sand cause they thought of me..thanks guys,really=) Afer that,took a bus home,got ready and meet baby in Tpy...i was early so went to tpy 3 1st,,chatted with Hidaya for a while then went to Mac and met him..seeing Hidaya made me realise working in giordano has been the right choice,she was the one i first knew when i worked in giordano..yeah,cannot wait to attend your wedding,,all the best to you and ben..Me and baby chatted in mac for a while,discussed my maths and of course our plans for the next coming weeks..yeah!! we are going to watch movie,so excited and i cannot wait for WWE...coolies!! And then we went to jalan jalan for a while then head to pizza hut for dinner...there was the place where we started our stupid small argument...darling,thinking back,i feel we were just being stupid but after clearing the air,i felt you were right and i'm really sorry for saying those words that i should not say..thanks for forgiving me..i really feel that my love for you increased after the argument..haha,fights are good!! Love the park session with you..love you company..love enjoying the atmosphere..it was nice and windy..haha..darling,i love you=) Oh well..i'm kinda of having rashes now..and tomorrow's racial harmony day and i have o's chinese listening comprehension,so ma fan,must change here and there...oh well,but i enjoyed every moment of my life..oh,here are some pictures,i took:

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Thursday, July 12, 2007

11:00 PM

No Regrets??

School was great today!!! i didnt felt very tired...PE was so fun,we played floorball..great,this is the first time i find PE so enjoyable cause i usually dread PE but today was really really fantastic..me,rennu and beth played against Huiling,Sam and Becks...it was a sweat out..i love Pe man!!! The best part of today lesson was LIVE..they invited an person to talk and she is called Candice..she is damn funny la..she told us about her lit story of how she used to be an ah lian and how much she hated studying...but later on,how her life changed..She said:If you want something,nothing/nobody can stop you!!Really love that line..that line really motivated me, after that i really felt maybe she's right..if we really want something,we can get it but we have to work for it..and so she also said our past does not equal to our future.I guess this line really suits me..all this while,i have been walking in the shadow of my past,thinking i can't do it...but now i really see how much everyone care about me...this feeling is something no one can explain..I love you people,especially people who gave me unconditional support thru out my life,especially God...i strayed and sin time after time yet you kept forgiving me and gave me lots of wonderful person..thank you lord!! Oh shit,i'm getting emo..darling,i think my best friend really coming already..poor you..i miss you leh,though you cannot meet me tomorrow but don't worry,i'm not angry..i understand that you are very tired,thanks for going out with me on Saturday despite me knowing that Sat is a day where you can rest..I love you baby,thank you for what you have done=) So continue back to my story..Candice also mentioned that its no good to be average and nothing is never too late..We are in a world full of choices...One thing i have learn is that we got the choice to either be happy or to be sad..its as easy as ABC...The talk was good la,rather interesting...she left us with one question..If could be/do/have anything in the world,if there was no such thing as failure,what do you really want?ya,this question is really worth reflecting..you know what...My answer is I wanna be happy, do many wonderful things for the people around me and have all the love everyone could give me..i know i'm being stupid,but i had enough of materialistic things,what i need is something money cannot buy...well,i could have say i wanted to be a millionaire and this could solve everything but will i really be happy even if i were rich??sandra, sandra,sandra..remember..I HAVE NO REGRETS!! seriously,if i were to die now, i would have no regrets too...Love everyone=)

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

10:27 PM

Miss Those Gossiping Sessions??
Oxymorons? Clique?
If i could,i would turn back the time.....

So today woke up,luckily i was early...school today was boring,tiring...felt like sleeping the whole day thru..everyone was discussing about what to wear for racial harmony..especially with Shamini being Miss Racial Harmony..guess,this is our last year together..suddenly i feel happy..
secondly,we were all talking about miss ho's gathering. It was suppose to be at the beach on Sat where it is potluck,thought it would be fun but many people couldnt make it so they changed to friday instead at PS fish&co..want to go but friday,i will be meeting him already..sorry guys!! Well well well...perhaps i realise i miss caring about this class,miss my previous cliques and gathering...wonder whether you guys still remember those gatherings we always had in my house playing mahjong,studying or even just slacking,missed those times or guys,do you remember us cycling or roller-blading?? well,i still do..Hais...i feel like sleeping..i really feel like a pig..but its really tiring...so today,after school,went lunch with steff,hilda and lee xuan,take away to my house where we all sat down and ate..miss that feeling of people eating with me in my house...I really feel i have taken too many things for granted that i'm feeling it right now...then went back to school cause i need to stay back..this miss gan also never check..we were all slacking,gossiping..today's topic was how to dress Shamini consisting of all four races...I really believe i did it,i did it as a dorcas,i see the class being more united now..i feel so proud of myself now..This samantha also started talking about ghost stories and we were all so freaked out by it..especially when she said she would be visiting the cementary in friday,the 13th..That really freaked me out..she says stacy wants to go there to take pictures...scary man!! So we just spend our time gossiping,chatting until 5.30pm..it was like story-telling time..i'm so fascinated by it,its like the 1st time where i see everyone mature and finally grown up..This feeling and closeness really warms my heart!!! ok, 2 days more and i can see him..i cannot wait already..well well well..darling,i'm waiting for you to come online now..if not i wanna sleep already,i very tired..I know you are tired too over your project but please don't overwork yourself..must take care of your health ok?? ARGH!! cannot tahan already..good night world=)

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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

11:03 PM

So screwed!!

Today,i totally screwed up chinese oral..i kept stuttering and the right words just couldn't come out...the questions i thought would come out didnt come out..but on the other hand..my darling said as long i do my best,can already..he ah...just put down the phone with him..he's coming online later..yeah..i cannot seem to get enough of him man!! i miss him,wish i stayed in Yishun then i can see you more often..haha..darling,really thanks for your encouragement..i really wish you can complete your project asap..now that i have to stay back until 5.30 everyday..my hours spent with you will be lesser but its the quality time not the quantity..i really miss you..So finally,i went for tuition today..i don't think i wanna quit already..oh well..shall see how it goes..today,class was all right..all double period..had both sciences in a day..sian la..i'm like so tired la but so glad that chinese oral is over..I do my best,god will do the rest!! Nothing else to say..tomorrow's another day..I pray it will be a better day tomorrow..Chao!!

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Monday, July 09, 2007

8:25 PM

Because when the sun shine,we shine togther,you can stand under my umbrella...
here are the pics...

The shirt i almost buy!!

Ok...firstly to start with..i'm feeling a little fed up today,for what reason,i don't know..maybe its the heat or maybe menses?? its like my heart's so heavy...So it has been 2 days since the tenants has moved in,still not used to having strangers in the house but what can i do?? All i have learnt is no money no talk..and money's really important but its also the root of all evil..I wonder if i was a little richer,would my life be different? would i be the Sandra i am now? well well well...i'm still in a state of confusion of whether i wanna quit tuition..i know tuition's is important cause o's are like in 3-4 months time but Trish and my timing just clashes...its either everytime,she cancel on me or i cancel or her...i promise her i will do well...so many promises to so many people,darling..i also know i told you i will do my best right? but hais...don't know la...so today,miss Gan shouted at us,she was like"who are the girls who didnt stay back? stand up now!!!she really flared up and obviously i stood up and she chased us out of class...i'm such a naughty girl right?? and now we have to stay back everyday until 5.30pm until next term..so whatever la??oh well,its our fault,who ask us last week never stay back..haha..after so long..i finally learn something..if there's anything wrong,never put the blame on others,always blame yourself first...isn't it good?? so class was really boring,best part was i fell asleep during chinese listening comprehension during chinese..i was like dozing off la...then after school,Sam,Rebekah,Rennu,Jenny and me stay back...jenny went off to lunch leaving us behind and we were like..eh,how to tell miss gan we going for lunch leh? what if she comes in and see us all gone??haha...but it was really fun la...instead of doing maths,we were chatting,gossiping..from love,boys,religion to gossip..it really felt that time so fast....TIME!!!talking about that,it makes me think of how much i have grown..I cannot believe i have a boyfriend and its really karma you know..since young,i always hated chinese boys cause i found them unromantic,ungentle and many more...but don't worry darling,i believe we will turn out just fine..God is trying to prove me wrong..Thank you lord=) So went shopping with mummy on sat..bought new bras,a t-shirt and many other things..cause i've put on lots of weight that i cannot wear all my clothes..but luckily is mummy pay for me..she's the best la!!then yesterday,met up with Jasmine,came over to bake cookies..she and her andy!! but thanks,i really enjoyed myself=) well...i miss my darling..oh shit..tomorrow got chinese o level oral..i'm gonna be so dead..but don't worry people...we can do it right?? Jia You!!

We will be playmates,and lovers and share our secret world.....

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Saturday, July 07, 2007

9:40 AM

Hey people i would like to dedicate this song to you..and to my baby,this song is specially for you..Because you loved me=)

For all those times
you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it al
lYou were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believedI'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believedI'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believedI'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believedI'm everything I am
Because you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

8:55 AM

~Sandra's Speechless~

ok,people,cool down..ok..though i love my baby but i love you guys..ok,i shall add some more names here...i would like to thank SAMANTHA,ROZAND...you all ah..like small kids like that..oh well.we will always be one right? its fun being a kid,haha...secondly,i would like to thank RACHEL KOH and MICHELLE FONG...thanks for putting the time and effort in helping me these past few days..not forgetting RENE for giving me advice and stuff...really appreciate you guys alot..haha..i'm so happy..If this is a dream,i wish i would never wake up at all..so what have i been doing these past few days??yesterday was our one month anniversary..wow time really fly so fast..still remember those days at giordano,working with everyone...as much work was tiring but it was enjoyable and memorable..baby,i'm sure you won't forget Giordano right? cause thats where i meet you...so yesterday,i went for exit interview,it was good,said everything i wanted to say...when Eveyln said:ok,thank you for your service,all the best to you..i suddenly felt time pass so fast...in an bllind of an eye,i have already been working for 7 long months...never knew i could tahan but i did..I love you giordano..so yesterday baby and i went back to Giordano to visit them..then all the memories just started coming back to me..well well well..all good things wiill come to an end one day right?haha...thank you fellow giordanians for the wonderful memories we had,the x'mas competition,stocktake,bbqs,karaoke session,suppers..and many many other things..and baby,thanks for letting me meet you.."welcome,thank you and see you again Giordano!!" after visiting them,we went to mac cause we were still not hungry..then he went thru chinese oral with me.so nice la he...future chinese teacher huh? thanks for giving me all the encouragement i need and the long letter just mentioning about me needing to study and all your nagging...i really appreciate it,father...haha..then actually we wanted to go fork and spoon for dinner but i didnt want..so obviously he gave in to me and we went pizza hut..then when we reach there,he say he wanted fish and co..but then he say nevermind,next month then eat that..haha..during the whole outing with him,he always mention say i look like auntie..ya la,i very auntie la...haha..and then we went to toa payoh park,the park is so.......nice..got water fountain one you know..haha..sorry ah,i very suaku one..then went back to giordano again,then Azrlan was like,help us fold leh..haha..ya,i miss folding also...We never know what we have until its gone..well,people,let's keep this phrase in our head always,only then we will have no regrets!! Baby,thanks for yesterday,really appreciate whatever you have done for me..life's short,so let's treasure each other ok? Love you=) People,thanks for everything..haha..everyone's so cute..Sandra's really touched..thanks for loving me..i would like to end with a" I LOVE YOU"

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

8:36 PM

Happy!!

I'm so happy...firstly, i would like to thank my friends for being so happy with me and being so supportive of me...especially people like xiu wen,my clique,fairli,rachel and gang,huiling,diane,michelle,hilda and many more..oh ya,not forgetting my Jasmine...and to Hwee bing,thanks for the sweet letter..though its short but it means alot to me too...Believe things will get better for you=)how lucky am i to have friends like you guys...secondly,i would like to thank my mother,she's the best,supporting me all the while...lastly...is God...god..thanks for making me the happiest woman in the world..you can give me everything but i have also learnt that you can also take everything away from me...thanks for loving me unconditionally...Oh,not forgetting my BABY, thanks for loving me,giving me the best you can...though sometimes you can be naggy but i know whatever you do,its for my own good...thank you for loving me...Just wanna let you know that I love you too and I can't wait to see you on friday..haha...why do i sound like i'm gonna die soon man?haha...no la..its just i feel its time i learn to take a look at the people and things around me and how much they have done for me,loving me with all their heart..i have finally learnt how to treasure them=)Baby,it was you who taught me how to love,you showed me what was love,because of you,i'm a better person now..thank you..Oh,so you ask me how was school today?? it was all right except for the fact that i'm tired and sleepy..but to me the best part,was seeing those happy faces of you guys..you guys really make my day,be it good or bad..thanks alot.Cassandra Dias is the happiest and luckiest woman now,and she's proud to be one.now is the month of july,very soon o level will come and in an blink of an eye, we will all go our ways..well,but for now,let's treasure the times together ok people?? you can do it,just like what my darling say to me...Jia you!!I love you guys.

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Monday, July 02, 2007

9:11 PM

~My Love~

Finally, i changed my blogskin...i felt i was too emo in the past, well..now i realise life's too short to be emo right?? Now,i'm HAPPY..So what did i do these few days? Friday was walk-a-jog..

It was tiring but we still made it...well well well....then after walk-a-jog,took a cab home with renu,beth and mojo...went home,faster rush,get ready to go out and meet my baby...he so poor thing,had to waste money to watch a movie all by himself while waiting for me..Darling, you are just so sweet!!Went to TM to meet him then ate seoul garden..he's really the best leh..whatever i want,he get for me..i feel like a princess,haha...we ate till we almost burst..we loved the curry chicken the most..he still say want to bring some home and find out the recipe..funny la he..then after that, i decided that since we so lazy to walk,we shall go watch a movie.so we went to watch surf's up..it was so bored that he fell asleep..haha..then after that,we go walk walk..then went home...Then on Saturday, went to grandma's hoouse,later rushed home to meet him for supper at chomp chomp with typ4 giordanians...he met me at my house and we went to the playground after that..we swing swing and swing..just love swinging with him.if only..time could stop at that moment..afterwards,we went back to the coffeeshop at my house cause it was going to rain...chatted for a while then left for chomp chomp...when we reach,met kee kian and issey there..halfway crossing road,then Yusoff and Nadia almost bang us,haha...we ate alot...stingray,lalang,mussles,oysteregg.....thanks yusoff for the great supper!! after that,we went our separate ways...me and him just took a slow walk home...the feeling was so nice..but he la..want to go toilet so we had to find a toilet..we walk and walk..stopped at alternate bustops and started chatting for awhile..then we took pictures of our shadow...he said he loved seeing the shadow of two of us but you know what,i love it too so we decided to take pictures...it was like 2am and we were taking photos infront of private houses..haha..but i love that moment...after that,we reached my house at 2.50am? then we sat at the playground and chatted and just continued enjoying each other's company...He sent me to my lift and poor him took a cab home..and guess what? the fare to Yishun came up to 15bucks...my poor baby!!!well,darling..as much as i love you,i can see you love me more...haha...well well well...its 10.05,still got 55minutes more to go,i'm waiting for your call at 11am...meanwhile..just let me enjoy flashing back the memories of me and you..Love you=)