And somethings telling me it might be you all of my life..

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[#o2] Do not rip anything off
[#o3] Live like you will die tomorrow
[#o4] Love like you have never been hurt before
[#o5] Follow your heart
[#o6] And remember to live life to the fullest
[#o7] Always be happy
[#o8] Follow all of the above cause Sandra says so

It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop

I am Cassandra Teresa Dias,

Another turning point - a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist - directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
When our time is up,
when our lives are done,
will we say we've had our fun?
will we make a mark this time?
will we always say we tried?
all the love i have made,
i have no regrets,
it it all ends now,
i'm set...

I have no regrets

:D

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Thursday, January 31, 2008

4:54 PM

Cause memories are playing like a film without sound...

And just as i thought i was feeling depressed and emo

The rest are feeling the same

Everyone's as depressed too

Well, i guess...

There's a reason for it la..

Looking at this photo reminds me of so much things

Maybe at this moment,

we are just lost in our life

Going thru it without each another

Not like in the past when we were unhappy, we knew we had each other's back

But now, we don't

It all seemed like yesterday man

And i was like talking to samantha just now

I suddenly realised i miss the feeling of being a kid

Cause i realised its time to grow up

And when i was talking to Huiling yesterday

I also realised how time flies

And when i was reading some people's blog(shall not mention whose)

I guess we haven't gotten over the fact that we are out of school

Life's just so hard now

Time is passing real slow without the girlfriends

At least,

time flies faster when we are in school

And the fact that some are going overseas to study hasnt really sinked into my head

But i know that once it does, i'll feel it

once everyone enters poly or jc,

The time we meet will be lesser

The topics we talk about will be different too

Who knows whether we will even recognise each other on the road?

Or even bother to say Hi

Or will our friendship just fade away?

I miss darling

Darling, i think i would have died a a long time ago without you

You are the only thing that is right in my life

I cannot wait to see you soon

And to all the peeps,

I cannot believe we are going our own way soon

I cannot believe that its time for me to grow up

Thank you for everything!!!

I'm not depressed

I think reality is just creeping into me

Reality of the fact that we are going our own direction is hitting me

And i'm so gonna give a speech on my damn b'dae

We shall all just reminsince on that day

I miss you guys=)

But when we look back now, will the jokes still be funny??

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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

12:25 PM

I'm pretending again....

Back again
There are so many questions in my head now
Since there's no one for me to talk to
I shall just talk to this blog
Why do all good things has to come to an end?
Why do time flies?
I'm depressed man
And i don't know over what
I feel so fucked up
The blardee menses also don't want to come
I need a drink man
I've been crying myself to sleep
I don't know izit because i'm heaty
I don't even know the blardee reason why i'm depressed too
I've got everything but i'm still depressed
I'm unhappy but i pretend i'm alrite
I think i'm going crazy soon
And i don't know why that when i start talking to the girlfriends,
I can't help but be sad
Best!
I'm crying again
Hopefully its pms
I'm listening to christian songs to calm me down
I wonder izit because i'm such a sinner
I cannot believe i didnt go church for 3 weeks??
Hais hais hais
I've been sighing for god knows what reason
Maybe because i miss darling?
Or maybe because lee xuan is leaving for overseas?
Or maybe Huiling passed me her sadness?
Or maybe i didnt do well in the Os?
Or maybe I'm lonely and broke?
Or maybe i just cannot accept the fact that time flies?
Or maybe i've drifted from the girlfriends?
Or maybe because i've drifted away from God?
Or maybe because i'm just thinking too much?
I don't know man
Lord, please save me!!!
Forgive me as i have sinned badly
I'm sorry
I think i better take a nap now
I think i'm feeling much better now
Goodbye world

Everyday,i ask myself what is the purpose of my existence and i can't seem to find the answer...

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Monday, January 28, 2008

11:19 PM

As long as the river runs....

Hello world
I'm back again
Its 11 plus already but i'm still waiting for darling's call and i can't sleep
Poor him has to study for a major exam
I'm in the mood for love man
Waking up early to go suntanning with tasha
Hopefully, it doesnt rain=)
I'm feeling so fat la
Just got a new pill from the doctor
Its called xenical
Hope it will help me
I feel so bored
Everyone nowadays are either talking about jc or poly
Its like i feel so extra
But i'm not like them
I suddenly miss darling sia
I cannot wait for saturday to come
Hopefully, i will have some fun
And i went out with shamini today to hougang mall
And i realised its nice talking to her
I thought about it
From now on, if i'm really gonna take up pyschology, i should start by picking up conversation with people
But i'm having some cash flow problem right now
And darling says he can only lend me hundred plus dollars
I mean i understand his kind intention but its not enough
He's been so sweet
His mother made me some cny goodies
And he wants me to make cookies in return
We went to j8 yesterday
And we surprised xiaobao
Haha
She got a shock la
I dislocated my neck la
And now i can't turn
Hais...
I feel so so...don't know whether is sad or happy
I only know i'm not feeling good
Everyone's like changing and i don't feel the same
well well well
The only thing that is constant are changes!!

You are the song i sing in the car, don't know why........

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Sunday, January 27, 2008

12:47 AM

You're the only one i'll ever love......

And so i'm back
Firstly, i didnt do well for os..
So i cannot go anywhere but nitec
I'm not really upset about it though
Cause i never thought i was academically inclined like others
So i believe God has another plan for me
I mean its no big deal
This society may be paperchase,
But i'm not gonna be moulded by them
I have decided not to be like the rest who just follow the crowd because of a damn cert
I'm gonna do something i like and stop being influenced by other people
I have decided to do pyschology
I don't care if i'm gonna turn crazy watsoever
This is my life
No one can control my life but myself
I'm glad i didnt make it to poly
Cause i don't want neglecting my sleep,friends,family and boyfriend over a f**king project
That's not my style
I don't live to study,but i study to live
Ok,
enough talking about stupid stuff
I don't understand why people can get so upset over something so dead
And when a human is concerned, i don't see anyone getting all concerned about it
Well,
Maybe i'm just different
Newae, i'm so happy that i have my family and my darling who gives me so much support
My mum was so worried that i could not take the blow so she treated me to pizza
Darling knew i was upset and tried to tell me that i'm not dumb and at least i could cook
Stephanie got worried and decided to come over to keep me accompany
I would not exchanged anything in this world for them seriously
If failing this damn exam could get this kind of concern and love then i'm glad i failed it=)
So i will be going suntanning with tasha on tue
Meeting the oxymoron for dinner on thursday
And my 18 party on sat
Hope all things end up well
And as from today,
We part to search for our dreams
I'm just glad that at this important road of my life, i have people supporting me
Love you guys=)
The bad news is my handphone cannot be repaired
There goes my couple phone with darling
Hais..thanks to my blurness
Take care folks ya?
Follow your heart and choose your path wisely=)

Loving you makes life worth living cause i know i will never love this way again=)

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

12:48 PM

Thats when I love you.....

Back for a quick update
Last few days has been real fun
Had great time burning those fats at the pool with my dear Jessie
We both had bad sunburnt but i love it
I love her company
And on that monday night itself,
me,Hilda and Huimin went to happy daze to visit huiling
went there for dinner and a drink
Supposedly to drunk our surrows
They drank beers and i, bailey(my fav)
It was good time chatting our hearts out
How i miss spending those time with the girlfriends
After the drinks and the crapping
We 3 drunkards walked all the way home from serangoon
Talked about sex on the streets,played some words game
haha...
And yesterday,
Darling and i had a little "honeymoon" or should i say our sweet holiday
I packed my mat,sandwiches,bikini and stuff and we headed to sentosa
Darling rushed down after his exams and our wonderful holiday began
We first went to tanjong beach
That is my favourite beach cause there's no one there
We chose a good spot under the shade and lay the mat
Played with abit of water and took pictures
And then we lay down beside each other to relax
And we rest for a while
I simply adore the feeling of lying so close to him cause it just feels so right
and after that,
we took the tram back to the main point cause darling said he wanna go cineblast
We took the sentosa express there but who knew that the both of us got lost
Now, i know why we were made for each other
Cause we are both blur sotongs,haha
In the end,
we found our way there
The whole 15 minutes ride was 16 bucks
But darling paid 6 for me
He said it may be short
But it was fun
And its not say fantastic to me
We both agreed underwater world could be a better option
But it was too late
We wanted to play the luge too
But we couldnt decide
And then we went for dragon trail
It felt so eerie la...
After that,
We went to siloso beach
Climbed the bridge
And admire the little fishes swimming
As i was feeling hungry
We decided to head back to tanjong beach to finish the remaining sandwiches
As we lay our mat there,
We saw many couples taking wedding pictures
There were like directly infront of us
And we were looking at them,wondering how blissful it must be
We saw 3 pair of couples taking those sweet photos
And then we saw one middle age couple picnicing
They were like PDA la...
Kissing and making out
So darling and i lie on the mat and decided to spy on them
Damn funny la...
As we lay in each other's arm,
we watch the sunset
And enjoyed each other's company
As I saw other people's bliss
I knew i was as blissful as them
We then left the beautiful island
This post is gonna be long
Cause tmr is the o'level results day
And i think i'm gonna be the first to collect it
I told myself,
Be it good or bad,
I know i did my best
I'm gonna leave it all up to god
Good luck people!!!
I'm so..bored=)

Cause laughing without you could never be right........

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Saturday, January 12, 2008

3:16 PM

Linger.......

And so i'm finally back
How i miss this space so much
Have been busy slacking
Watching HBO
and so i managed to catch "fools rush in"
Its my favourite romance drama
Love can do wonders ya?
And then i watch Click
Cried like mad la..
Both storylines are excellents
With good morals behind
And recently,
I have this huge ball growing under my eyelid
I was paranoid thinking it was eye cancer and started crying
Thinking what was i to do i die now
Ranting like a mad woman
And i told darling
And i took his advice and went to see a doctor
Heng ah!!
The doctor said its due to my eyelashes must be because of my mascara
The conversation went like that;

Doc: so what's wrong cassandra?
Me: doc ah, i have sore throat, bad cough and a ball growing under my eyelid
Izit eye cancer, izit eye cancer?
Doc: don't worry, its a pimple
Me: You sure its not eye cancer ah? cause no pain at all leh
Doc:haha, soon will be painful,
I will give you some cream to apply
Me: jumps for joy..yay!! its not eye cancer

So funny la
I bet the doctor must be thinking " siao ah? eye cancer so easy get meh?"
I guess i was overly paranoid
But it really scared the freak out of me
Guess its a blessing in disguise la
Will be meeting mich and mojo tmr for lunch
And going sentosa with darling on wed
hopefully it would not rain
Cannot wait!!!
But life has been great till now
My b'dae's coming soon
Yay
Thats all for now folks
good night=)

If our love was a storybook,we would meet on the very first page.....

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Friday, January 04, 2008

11:44 PM

And So I Wonder....

And so i wonder....

why people have different fates...

Like some die young, some die late

Why is the human relationship just so funny

What it feels like to be alone

I don't know

I feel so random

Enough about that anyway

Went out with Sammie, Huiling and Huimin today

Sam said she wanted to buy my blue dress but when she tried, she didnt like it

So brought them to bedok central and then to east point,tampiness mall and then to amk hub to meet darling

You must be wondering what a wonder woman i am huh

We went to pet safari to see those cute animals

I really miss gigi and mickey man

I want a dog so badly

They are like cute little sweeties

After that,

we went to tampiness mall to jalan jalan

And then went to meet darling

And because of that

Darling waited for me for 1 hour

Cannot believe that there are actually so many traffic lights in s'pore when i took 22 all the way there

And when i reach there

He was like" let's watch movie,i'm so tired"

Then we went to watch "the legend"

Its a fantastic movie ok

All i can say is that the plot is brillant

Will smith is just a great actor la....

And then we went home

Oh,

and i bought a maroon tube dress today

So damn cheap and nice

I cannot believe i'm turning 18 in one months time

The best has yet to come

And i'm not giving up

Somehow,

I know this is not the climax of my life

All i can say is" time, can you stop f**king fly so fast?"

Until now

The fact that it is 2008 has not sink into my head

Sometime, i just like to wonder...............

Don't worry be happy, in every life, we have some trouble

But when we worry, we make it double......

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Wednesday, January 02, 2008

12:30 PM

Goodbye 2007......

And so i can officially say Happy New Year people!!!

Goodbye 2007

And so new year eve party at the chalet this year was good

We danced

But i didnt get to drink

Cause my dress was too short and i was worried if i drank, everything underneath could be seen

2007??

What can i say man?

Its a memorable year for me

Firstly,I finish my Os

secondly, it was rather smooth sailing

thirdly, i found that special someone...

Year after year,

I tell myself how time flies

Its like i'm gonna be 18 in 2 months time

Life's funny ya?

And so my new year resolution?

To lose weight and be the hottest girl around

To be happily ever after with darling

To control my bad temper

To love the people around me more

To save money

To be happy

like what darling says,

He says he wish everyone could be happy

and most importantly

I have the same sentiments

And one more thing

I cannot believe i'm no more schooling

How i miss my girlfriends

Where are you guys man??

So i went JB ytd

There place is dirty cheap

Bought necklace and shoe there

It was sort of a short family holiday

but i enjoyed it

As i bid 2007 goodbye

I say goodbye to secondary school life

miss everything

But the memories are the only thing that is remained

And in like 4 more days,

It will be my 7th month with him

Time ah, you really fly man

Hopefully,there will be more to come

Hopefully, everyone will enjoy this 2008

The best has yet to come

And did i tell you?

My sea monkeys are mating

Hopefully, they will give birth

Hopefully, i can get good os results to get into the course i want

But if its no good,

Its ok as its not a big deal

I'm feeling so lazy like a pig

But today's the official start of my diet plan

Please wish me luck that i will succeed

Ok guys..

Enjoy yourselves ya?

Tata.....

Cause time will fly like a dove, before i know it, I will be counting my grey hair...