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Tuesday, May 22, 2007
8:15 PM
All that i've got....
Wow..its been so long since i last updated...oh well..time really flies,things have changed. So many questions in my head..wondering whether was i the one who changed or the people around me..guess i was the one who changed..yes,they did changed but change to be more matured..and as for me? still in the same position,didnt grow much mature...Today is the 22 already..i don't want that day to draw nearer...1stly vincent is leaving on the 25 and o level chinese will be on the 28....and i heven even studied..can someone kill me?? I feel so so so so so demotivated,can someone motivate me please?? I just wish that person was you man..i don't know whether you know how i feel about you but i guess you can roughly feel it too..oh well..if its meant to be then its meant to be....I'm going crazy and i don't know what to do!!! I have not hanged out with my friends for a long,suddenly i don't know i feel so drifted from them like i don't feel the same with them anymore,guess partially was my work..Perhaps,its karma...I can feel it..am i such a terrible person?? I've changed...now in my eyes..my friends are such horrible creatures,they are selfish and they only care about themselves or should i say i'm the selfish one? Am i really that bad?? I don't know,i don't know what to do next,i wanna quit my job already..so many contradictions..its like no one can hear me...can you hear me? I'm bleeding inside,yes i'm emo..why are you giving up on me?? Every night,i force myself to sleep....I hate now the cassandra,i'm not longer adorable in people's eyes already...I'm like a bitch...argh! oh well, guess i'll be just fine pretending i'm not