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Saturday, August 08, 2009
10:04 PM

And What Makes It Last?
And sad to say,
I have been feeling very lousy the past few days
Be it at work,
Be it at home
Be it towards colleagues,
Be it towards my family,
Be it towards baby..
I really feel tired to go on...
Tired to give my best
Tired to think,
Tired to feel tired
Tired to find hope,
Tired to find meaning
Tired to find reasons why i feel this way
My heart is confused
There's so many things that i wish i could just decide and give it a shot
But i dont have the courage
I'm a coward
I dont know why i am depressed
It could be my hormones,
It could be menses
It could be my heart
I do not know
All i know is i need a break
I wanna go to a place where no one can find me
A place where i can relax and not think about anything
Can i go alone?
Just by myself?
Oh well,
I have been alone for these while anyway..
What difference does it make?
Everyone has someone important in their life,
But i realise i'm not one of them
No one can give me the full attention i need,
The time i need
The love i deserve
I just wonder why is this world always so busy
Why nobody bother to just tell me that i am important?
Because i feel so small
Really really small...
I wish someone can just give me a hug right now
But nobody knows how i feel
They just thhink i'm a happy go lucky girl
But has anyone ever ask me am i really happy?
I feel my world falling apart
I just need someone to be there for me
Is this so hard?
You tell me,
What is the point?
No meaning seh
What i am saying here may sound childish,
But these are from my heart...