And somethings telling me it might be you all of my life..

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[#o1] Welcome to my blog
[#o2] Do not rip anything off
[#o3] Live like you will die tomorrow
[#o4] Love like you have never been hurt before
[#o5] Follow your heart
[#o6] And remember to live life to the fullest
[#o7] Always be happy
[#o8] Follow all of the above cause Sandra says so

It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop

I am Cassandra Teresa Dias,

Another turning point - a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist - directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
When our time is up,
when our lives are done,
will we say we've had our fun?
will we make a mark this time?
will we always say we tried?
all the love i have made,
i have no regrets,
it it all ends now,
i'm set...

I have no regrets

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Friday, December 01, 2006

12:10 AM

Poetically Pathetic...

I've reached the stage of giving up...i can't eat,i can't sleep...i can't seem to do anything...I don't know what's the reason but all i know is that i'm very unhappy..i feel so tired of being unhappy..nothing seem to make me feel happy,am i so hard to please?? Life is a misery,everyone will stand alone..is that true? well...to me it is 70% true..complain complain and complain is all i'm good for but i don't know what is the right thing to do to really make myself happy,i feel so empty, so depressed,yes,i'm repeating again..Life's really sucks sometimes,really it does..where are all my friends? studying? sleeping? going out with mother? watching tv? abroad? anything else to add? oh ya,i missed out working and laziness..They are the ones who make me feel pathetic,cause when i need them..they seem to all fade away from my pathetic life...They only know how to come to me when they need me but somehow able to throw me 100 excuses when i need them..funny thing is when i free..they turn me down,when i busy,they die die will ask me out..what's their problem ah? So i guess they are what i called my "good" friends..good for turning me down..but i don't really care much anyway..i'm also sick of work,so much stress,sick of life,doing the same routine...sick of everything and everyone that exist in my life...I feel so pathetic though everyone thought i was happy but guess nobody knows that i'm bleeding inside..My life is nothing but for people...sad also have to smile and act happy for customers..Guess that didnt work for me ...busy also still have to make time for my friends...Ever since i started working,i also don't have time to spend with my family,i only see my father once a week..i feel so so so stressed..I want a holiday but the problem is i'm poor,i can't afford it...thats why now i'm working to make sure i'm not poor but still no point..everything has no meaning,has no point...I thought family and friends would make me happy but later i found out we were too busy with our own fucked up life..and they soon became fucked up and i later became fucked up too..so i turn my point to money which i thought will make me happy cause it could buy me anything i wanted but i soon realise i lost time..time to go out,time to reflect,time to even day dream..time? time never waits for me..i feel so pathetic...can some one make me feel unpathetic? my answer is no cause everyone has their own life..I'm going crazy,are you going to save me? cause i'm scared that when i turn crazy, the whole world is happy..well,guess life's like that...I don't resign to fate,i resign to life..Please give me back that hope,love and the life that i used to have but now lost..will you? please? Just someone to give me a big hug and tell me that everyything will be great,that is all i need cause i'm poetically feeling pathetic today=(