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Thursday, November 30, 2006
12:45 AM

Smile Like You Mean It....
Yup..so i finally bought a new mp3 player,creative zen neeon 2...kana scolded by Michelle again..she say my face very long,never smile...then i was thinking really meh? I can't be bothered seriously...smile or don't smile..life is still the same...i feel so sian,so demotivated..and so stressed..i feel so stress to work whenever she is there..but i still chiong for sales target..i find smiling so hard..i find it so hard to smile when there's nothing to make me smile...I feel so shitty..i thought money will make me work harder..or make me more motivated but i feel depressed still...why? my friends are too hopeless,parents too busy,money's spent...world's black...everything seem so black..well,welcome to the black parade then!!! I'm broke again,serve me right..I'm sad again,also serve me right,everything serve me right...I feel so so so fucked up and pissed.wondering whether will i ever have enough time to do what i want to do..but never mind..today after work,me and hidaya went to PS to buy mp3 player cause she said she wanted one..after that,she treat me to long john silver..guess that gave me a reason to smile..Smile an everlasting smile,a smile that will bring you back to me=(