And somethings telling me it might be you all of my life..

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[#o1] Welcome to my blog
[#o2] Do not rip anything off
[#o3] Live like you will die tomorrow
[#o4] Love like you have never been hurt before
[#o5] Follow your heart
[#o6] And remember to live life to the fullest
[#o7] Always be happy
[#o8] Follow all of the above cause Sandra says so

It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop

I am Cassandra Teresa Dias,

Another turning point - a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist - directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
When our time is up,
when our lives are done,
will we say we've had our fun?
will we make a mark this time?
will we always say we tried?
all the love i have made,
i have no regrets,
it it all ends now,
i'm set...

I have no regrets

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Monday, November 20, 2006

10:24 PM

Drenched In My Pain Again.....

I'm stoning..been stoning since the time i woke up...i don't know why..i'm just staring into empty space..i feel so blur...so dreamy..no wonder in class they also say i day dream and now i really believe it too..met up with steff today...then went work...had a new staff called Karen and kay is gone..so sad!! after all, we were once colleagues..i remember he was the one who helped me on my first day of work..ya..parting is part and parcel of life...its true..anyway..i felt very sick today...physical and mentally..i feel so bored.so sad, so weak..i don't know..i feel like i'm dying...dying for time to pass by quicker...dying to have fun..i'm so frustrated and the best part is i don't know why..am i a perfectionist? a freak who thinks that life is a bed of roses everyday? or a fool who thinks that she can get whatever she wants easily? i don't know what's my fucking problem but i know i have a problem..i can feel it.menses? possible maybe....hais...been sighing the whole night...i seem to lose all my zeal in life...Cassandra Dias seem to be now dead..i want to sleep but i can't sleep..keep tossing and turning..lyrics keep appearing in my damn head and i start singing them out loud....memories and flashbacks keep coming...i feel so tired...even Michelle scolded me again today..she keep saying i'm in a daze but the best part is i don't realise it..she say i'm in my own world..ya..i admit i am....at least,my world does not have the word misery...i'm feeling crazy lately...there's nothiing to be depressed over but i'm feeling depressed..i just don't know why...why am i so useless? everything also don't know...what the hell do i know then? i feel like screaming but the thought of me screaming alone makes me wanna scream even louder...i can't smile...will you make me smile again like you always did? sobx sobx sobx...i'm so bored...i'm going out tomorrow and its suppose to be a good thing but why do i feel like i'm being forced to go out? i feel like shit..i really feel it..i don't know how to explain that feeling but i know its killing me...my head's spinning..I wonder if the world wasn't round,will i be much happier?haha..sorry but it was just a thought that pass thru my head...i heven done my homework for god's sake..heven do so much things...i'm worrying worrying....is anyone listening to me? i wanna run away...i wanna scream...i'm on the edge of breaking down and there's no one to save me...i'm sick of being sad.I don't think i'm ok...here comes the rain again,falling from the stars,drenched in my pain again becoming who we are.....