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Friday, October 20, 2006
4:41 PM

Tattooed Memory#1
I gave up something i love
And so i left the clique..I didnt know whether i made the right decision in the first place but now i believe i did...They didnt even bother to ask me why i left or in other words, they didnt even care...perhaps that was the best i could do..Though they think i was happy but they didnt know how hard it was making this painful decision...Sometimes, i rather wish they didnt become a part of my life so i wouldn'thave to feel sad leaving the clique but i still thank them for the wonderful memories they have given me=) That day, i really had good intention of looking after the stuff but they mistook me for being anti social, i mean c'mon, if i had the chance, i would join them too, why would i sit alone all by myself?? All of you only care about yourself but you all didnt know that i was upset when you thought of me that way...Whhy do people only always care about themselves?? I feel so tired, trying to please everyone, when my phone rings,i pick up immediately, when you people ask me out, i happily accepted it but why izit when i needed yoou all...you guys tell me you are busy?? You tell me you need time for yourself but did you even realise that you also took some of my time??? I'm everyday trying to please everyone that i thought by doing so,i will be happier but i felt like shit..i really did but nobody knows...Now,all i wanna do is to run away to a place where no one knows me, i just want some time to be alone and also because of this you called me anti social, is this being fair to me?? I'm really fucking tired..i can't take the blame, sick with shame, so exhausting to lose my own game...The world is black, the hearts are cold, there;s no hope,thats what i'm told but i guess nothing stays perfect forever right??